Seems to be that I am in the opening scenes of a new story to tell. This first chapter will be titled ‘Well fuck, it’s breast cancer.’
I want to start off this blog by first posting a version of the e-mail that I sent out to friends and family so to some of you this will be redundant. I plan to use this space to share my thoughts, musings, feelings and my recent news. I encourage feedback and sharing of this site and info even amongst people I don’t know. I’d love to hear from people too!
What I know now is that I found a lump in my right breast a couple of weeks ago. After a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy I have been diagnosed with a lobular carcinoma. (The lobules are the milk producing regions of the breast.) There are currently a few things in my favor.
1. I found it early. This little bastard is less than 2 cm. (Less than the size of a pea if you wanna think about it that way but I despise comparing food to tumors!)
2. I am young and otherwise pretty healthy and frankly my dears, I’ve just got too much to do for this to trip me up.
3. In the very broad aggressiveness spectrum of cancers lobular carcinoma is not on the high end.
I have been assigned a nurse navigator named JoAnn through Project HER who is around whenever I have questions. I will meet her tomorrow and I am glad to have her around.
Check this out for more info on Project HER. https://www.corvallisclinic.com/services_specialties/find-a-service-specialty?specialty&service=19&search&mode=Submit&submit.x=28&submit.y=9
I am having a consult with surgery and oncology tomorrow (Tuesday) at 9:15a and I’ll know much more after this appointment.
What I don’t know…
…at this point could fill a library. I don’t know about lumpectomy or mastectomy. In the case of a mastectomy I don’t know how huge I’d like my new ones to be. C? D? One of each? I don’t know about chemotherapy or radiation but I do know that if I have to lose my hair I’m gonna need more wigs!
What I don’t need…
… pity. As of now I do not feel sick and I don’t want to be treated as though i am. I feel like I am gearing up for battle here and positivity and strength and gonna be my biggest allies.
What I do need…
I need you all to continue to be the charming, witty, musical, crass, silly, free, caring and genuine folks that I know you to be. I know that I don’t even have to ask because you can’t help it! That’s why you’re great! I may need specific things in the future and I promise that I’ll ask. Until then let’s go get coffee or a beer. Let’s can tomatoes. Let’s explore tattoo options. Let’s sit around fires and listen to music (even if it’s Huey Lewis and the News). Let’s bare our skins to the sun rays and to the rivers flow while it is still warm enough to do so!